Necromorph Hobag

I've been doing SO WELL in losing weight. I was down to 222 for two days in a row, and then my hormones decided, "PSYCH!" and for two days I've been sitting back at 229.

SEVEN GODDAMNED POUNDS BECAUSE MY UTERUS LIKES TO THROW ITS WEIGHT AROUND.

UUGH. I know it's hormones because my entire lower half feels like I've been beaten with a sack of oranges, but it's still fucking frustrating that I lose progress every month because I'm a girl. I'm glad I got my prescription pain killer refilled because my neck is killing me on top of my uterus abusing my legs.

Every month, it's two steps forward, two steps back. Sometimes four steps back, which I can't really figure out. If I can just GAIN seven pounds shouldn't I just be able to straight lose it, too? Shouldn't it fall off after a week or two, instead of sticking around and making me work for it again?

Ugh. I should be able to punch a man in the balls every time this happens just because this inequality of gender is unfair and men should have to deal with something just as anger-making.

We got paid, and I can *afford to pay ALL of our bills, but I agreed to an automatic pay plan to save on interest and so I have to just sit and wait for that to come out in two weeks. Ugh, I don't *want to wait. I'm going to call them later today and ask if paying early will make the auto-pay be ignored, or if it will still try to pull that money out in two weeks.

I have really wanted to write the last few nights, but it hasn't happened. I keep getting distracted by stupid internet things, or work has been taking too long. Or, I start re-reading books I like. I'm into one of the In Death, books, right now. It's some of my favorite Eve moments, and I always forget that until I just decide to choose it at random and read. I want to write Gwen's next book, since I know how it starts and generally how it goes. I also should finish the monster thing I started for that anthology.

We sort-of-but-didn't-really renamed Lump to Al. He doesn't answer to it, but it's pretty fitting. Mainly, it's just funny for us to call him a human name and have him continue to snooze/stare at the wall. He's definitely our stupidest cat.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
I visited the east coast, had a roommate, didn't get super excited for Christmas, and lost weight.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I stopped making those years ago. It's not worth it.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope.

5. What countries did you visit?
CANADAAAA! Hi Ottawa, hiiiii!

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
A house and lots more money. Also two puppies and possibly another cat.

7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory and why?
Nothing really remains etched in my memory; my memory sucks balls.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Achieving a 50lb weight loss, definitely. Making better food and exercise habits for myself.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not losing more than 50lbs, I think. I really slacked off there during summer. I probably could be at least another 20lbs lighter if I had really had better fortitude.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nah, I'm like Bruce Willis, only without the water allergy.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Ummm. Probably either my ipad or iphone 4? I use them both daily a lot.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Martin's! He's lost two pounds (A feat for a cat such as him) and he's gotten less annoying.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Anyone who opposes equal rights for gays, nearly every guest in the hotel.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food. Always food.

15. What did you really, really, really get excited about?
My vacation for my birthday!

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
I won't know for a few more years.

17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? Eh
Thinner? Definitely
Richer? Probably

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Exercise, eating well, writing.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Um... probably spending money on shit I don't need.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
At home with my brother, cats and husband.

21. How will you be spending New Years?
At work, hopefully not seeing a single guest all night.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?
with hundreds of adorable animals on the internet, yes.

23. How many one-night stands?
I'm going to edit this and say that I bought no single nightstands all year. I have no nightstands at all.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Ummmm. Probably Supernatural.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Every guest.

26. What was the best book you read?
I have no idea. Probably the latest In Death book.

27. What was your biggest musical discovery?
Either Flo or Oh Land.

28. What did you want and you got?
A lot; I'm bad about spoiling myself, since I felt like so much of my childhood revolved around me not getting anything I wanted due to lack of funds.

29. What did you want and not get?
A house!

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Oh my gosh. That's a tough choice! I loved so many movies that I saw, and I probably saw upwards of 100 movies this year. The first two that come to mind are Fast Five (i know, lol) and Sherlock 2.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn?
I was in Boston, MA on my birthday trying to figure out how to use the T, and wishing my sister's coworkers weren't dicks.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More money, definitely. A better job, probably.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Confusing; with losing weight and not having a lot of money, I've been in between new clothes and old.

34. What kept you sane?
the internet.

35. Which celebrity did you fancy the most?
ummmm. I'm definitely on a Brandon Routh kick, right now, but Angelina Jolie and Ryan Reynolds are, overall, my top two "please let me just look at you" celebs.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Gay rights always gets me completely passionate, both good and bad. I think it's because I have a serious issue with when things are unfair, and the fact that fucksticks can just go, "no, those people are different than I am, so they don't deserve the same things I get" and then IT WILL HAPPEN just outrages the shit out of me. Animal rights is up there for the same reason.

37. Who did you miss?
Uh. Probably Husband while I was on vacation, but that's about it. I don't do emotional connections too well, so missing people is a weird concept to me.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
This goes back to my bad memory; I have no idea who I know now that I didn't know last year ¬¬

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
I don't think I learned any, actually.

40. Quote or Song Lyric that sums up your year:
oh, jeez. This shit always confuses me because, while I like music, I'm not someone it really speaks to or to whom it REALLY REALLY matters. Nothing comes to mind at all.

In 9 years! that's something like a thousand entries a year? I can't math.

Speaking of math, Husband and I are considering selling his car, finding a higher-paying job for him and buying a house.

We went looking at these really cute new houses for 220k and he's crunching the numbers and, if we really are good about not buying shit we don't need, we could afford one now. Ryan says that Robert would be a likely renter once he's up here. As long as he isn't a slob, isn't an asshole about not being a slob and doesn't do anything to endanger my cats, then I think I could handle that.

BUT HOLY SHIT A HOUSE!

We have debt (two cars, a credit card and a personal loan) but my credit is fantastic and Ryan's is pretty decent (not quite 700, but close) but I guess we make enough that we would actually be able to afford the monthly payment. Getting rid of Ryan's car would get rid of the car loan, which frees up $300 a month (after insurance and the loan payment) would would help immensely. Ryan's thinking he could get a job as a mall manager, and work less than a mile from home and just take the free bike we got last month to work each day.

It would be so damn fantastic! Plus, I wouldn't feel like I'm pulling my teeth out every time we give $1,000 rent to shitty apartments that don't give a shit about us and take forever to fix problems that they should fix as soon as possible.


Actually, looking at how much we owe on his car, it probably wouldn't work to sell it. We have 12k left on the loan and, if my newer car is in great condition and only worth 8-9k, then his car would not be worth someone buying it for 12k to get us out from under the loan. blurgh to that.

We could probably sell mine, since it's worth only slightly less than we owe on the loan, though.

I went for an hour long walk this morning and then to the farmer's market. I've been training a guy at work who is my opposite. I am pretty sure he will be good at the job, but not like it enough to stay, as he is VERY MUCH a people person.

My size 22 old navy pants that i've had for six weeks are too big. Since I have only lost 3lbs in that six weeks, I am convinced this is the fault of the pants, and has nothing to do with my body.

I got a lot of tea today, which makes me very happy.

I have tonight, tomorrow and maybe Tuesday to myself at work, and then it's back to training. The new guy is very nice, but very emotionally needy and I get drained easily having to give to others. This is why Ryan and I are perfect for each other- neither of us needs (nor really has the ability to give) any emotional coddling whatsoever.

iTunes has been playing all the songs of my 17-21 year old self, every day that I have it on random, lately. It's making me want to write, but I just haven't gotten around to it.

I should go to bed, but I feel like there is something I am supposed to be doing, or that I was supposed to have done.

I went to the market today by myself, and when I got up to the hot dog cart, he looked happy to see me. He started my order and then commented that he hasn't seen me recently. I explained that I have been way too broke, and he said that we should start a layaway program for me so that I can still get hot dogs when I have no money. I quoted Wimpy and offered to pay him Tuesday.

Then, I ate my Field Roast hot dog alone in a cubby hole doorway and got weird looks from skinny white women on cell phones, three in all. It was very strange, and I couldn't figure out if skinny white women are always giving me shitty looks and I just don't care enough to notice, or if this was a one time occurrence.

Jessica is just as excited as I am to see Fast Five, which makes me gleeful. Ryan will not see it with me (because it will be total shit~) but I would have gone alone. Now I don't have to.

Latest sewing project! A neckwarmer that's better than a stupid scarf! See? It covers my WHOLE neck, and down my back a bit, to make sure those crafty breezes can't get in my jacket. Plus, it's adorable. It kind of looks like a skirt for my neck. You can't see the button colors, but they're cream, light blue and white.

I am confused as to why the felt got scratchier as I worked with it. When I first pulled it out, it was super soft, but now I'm not sure I even want to wear the stupid thing. I may sew a softer fabric along the middle on the inside to cut down on the scratchiness.

I will likely make more of these in other colors, but I'll definitely not just use felt, next time. I used it this time because I didn't want to deal with folding and seams and matching shit up and blah blah all that. But, I want to have a few of these with some neat patterns and such, so I'll go a different way, next time. I kept a piece of felt with the starting length, so I won't have to measure or waste time with that. (lol, I never measure anything)

• Courier App for Mac
This app is super cool. It's a large tray in which you have "envelopes" that link to certain picture/file accounts. I have Flickr, Facebook, Cloud app (later) and Twitpic envelopes, currently. When I want to upload to any of those services, I just drag and drop the pictures I want into the envelopes. I can then hit "deliver" or click the files and be taken through super simple UI to change their meta data. When I bought it from the Mac Apps store the app was $4.99.

• Cloud App for Mac
SO easy. I love this just for dragging and dropping photos that I want to show someone real quick. I usually use the menubar option, which is to say I screenshot, drag the screenshot to the cloud and then wait a few seconds while it uploads. The app automatically pastes the URL of the file into my clipboard, so all I have to do then is paste it into a chat window. The only downside is that it gives me the URL to a page with the picture/file on it, instead of the file itself, so I have to go to that page if I want to hotlink the picture, but still. That's pretty cool. It's free, unless I want to pay for more space, which I haven't needed yet.

• Jokerz candy bar
Vegan snickers! I don't eat eggs, anymore, so actual snickers are out. Regardless, I like these better. The chocolate seems to be higher quality so my throat doesn't sting after eating it like snickers. I also wish it had more peanuts. It's still REALLY good, though 280 calories for (usually) $2.50, which is fine with me because I don't buy them often.

• This picture:


• Socialite for Mac
I bought this back when Cosmic Machine was developing it and I got the beta price of $15; it's $20 now, and I think it's worth it. You get most of your social media all in one UI, and it allows you to filter, search, save searches and generally view all your social updates how you want to. I run YFF through this thing, and that way I get to search for a certain batty author and her cohorts without actually following her. It automatically shortens URLs to the service you choose (from a list), which is really handy. It's not perfect, IMO, but I would be hard-pressed to find another application that's as functional as it is.

• These people


• SEATTLE
Vigilante justice has come to Seattle, and the caped crusaders drive a Kia.

• Awesome bus shelters


• Lia Ices


• Agnes Obel


• Narcoleptic Dancers


I think that's all for now. Time to write a review of a cooling mat I bought that does absolutely jack shit. Definitely returning it.

I got two of these from ZomBcon :)